A perfect day

A perfect day

What a day. It was everything i could have wished my farewell to be, spent with a very special person i have had the pleasure of meeting here. We were going on an early morning surf adventure. And i was excited. Super excited. I slept at 22:30 and woke at 00:30 hoping it was time to leave…but it wasn’t. Finally it was time to get up…It was a dark dam morning. The rainy season was in full affect. I chucked…

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the end before the beginning

the end before the beginning

I have spent the day travelling to and from Singapore. We are about to descend back into Bali. I feel a lump in my throat as it really has all come to an end. People have left and more are leaving. What a time shared it has been. Jnk is playing at a d n’ b night tonight but my emotions lie with Solid. I moaned and groaned, let go and gave in, felt so many feelings and emotions, processed…

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A Solid End

A Solid End

It still strikes to amaze me how emotions change so very quickly. Last night i was with the gentle price filled with happy floaty feelings and today i can feel a weight in my heart and a lump in my throat as my two months in the Solid Surf Academy comes to an close. It really has been an amazing experience, and for all our differences in age, outlooks, personalities and ways of being, the group i have formed feels…

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I F**KIN PASSED!!!!

I F**KIN PASSED!!!!

OMG MY FUCKITY FUCK FUCK!!! I PASSED AND AM NOW AN OFFICIALLY ISA LEVEL 1 QUALIFIED SURF INSTRUCTOR (PART OF THE OLYMPIC COMMITTEE) AND CERTIFICATED IN (ILS) INTERNATIONAL LIFE SAVING!!! I honestly cannot believe it! I put in the hours, i committed as i always do but truly did not think this exam and my surfing ability would be getting passed this week. After my rib injury and the huge emotional roller coaster i have been on, i learnt what…

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Tinder Date

Tinder Date

I’ve always been skeptical¬†about dating sites but thought fuck it, you only live once and after the recent upsets I could use some compliments and boy chat time. I had been chatting to this guy for a few weeks and finally we met. Tonight i think i can say that i have finally found my inner calm, at complete peace deeply within myself and also the world and its situations around me. I have just jumped into my bed after…

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The examiner has landed

The examiner has landed

I thought surfing was healthy living…well it can be until your Welsh examiner turns up! Fucking hell that man can drink and tonight was to be my introduction to it. Dean arrived yesterday and as soon as he landed the waves seemed to disappear. It was day two of exam week, doing various lessons in surf theory, board rescue and CPR. I came to Berawa late that afternoon after our lessons to check the waves and contemplate a surf. Dean…

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P A R T Y T I M E

P A R T Y T I M E

Its all been going on and hard to know where to start as i write this in bid to fill in not only the blank in the blog, but also remind my mind. As i mentioned before i had thought about stopping to write this as I’d just given myself an extra chore, a task to complete and ultimately another distraction. Since i had that thought back in G-Land i have only written when i feel really feel like it,…

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Back in the room

Back in the room

It’s funny how quickly things can change…especially when there are waves involved! This morning i got an email making me feel worthless and as though i shouldn’t exist, this afternoon i feel like the queen of the ocean and i have the power and strength to take on the world!! Ah Kedungu… i love you.¬†   I have been out the water for what has felt like FOREVER!!! But today i made it back in. It was big and perfect…

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Broken promises

Broken promises

I wrote an email which i never sent. I wrote a blog that i never posted. I had words i never spoke. I felt feelings i never shared. I tried to reply to your email, but i couldn’t. I am shocked by the words in which i read. It is hard when your ex moves on… its even harder when they move on with someone you know. Bringing someone you know into a place you have been, to a touch…

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Finding Nemo

Finding Nemo

Well the last 24 hours has been eventful. Good times, crazy times, moped rides in the rain, chats and nothing said, two hours sleep and a snorkel trip to finish. I really need to find quiet headspace. I am so overly crowded in the mind, concerned with what everyone else is doing and what people think of me it’s almost an obsession. Hyper aware constantly. I didn’t realise i was so heavily like that, but now i can see how…

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